Hello,

As I sit here I am amazed at how much I got done to day at the church it is now 3:56 in the afternoon and as I write this entry listing to Kimberly and Alberto Rivera and prepare for tonight’s This Generation service I begin to ask myself.. What am I doing here? I have a stronghold that has taken the best of me this week and I really don’t feel like I should even be here today. All I want to do is hide.

But I am reminded that when we hide the Lord still sees what we are doing. I just re-read a comment on a post that is now private by a faithful reader and it inspires me to go on and fight the good fight. I have always wanted this blog to be an inspiration to others and to help someone out there in the land we call Cyber Space to know that there is someone who struggles too.

For the longest time I did not blog. This may well be my fourth or fith time at having a blog that speaks to others. I was on the beginning stages of livejournal.com and then moved to blogger when I found that it allowed me to post my blog via my own hosting space rather then at a host with a long name.  which is kinda funny where I host now. But then after blogger and two domain names I just stopped. I let my domain mattitude.ca go and then one night while I was in prayer over what to do with my domain mjsd.ca (my birth initials) the Lord told me to let that domain go. I was holding on to something with a lot of baggage behind it.

I remember I was in the last stages of what did not start out but became an all night prayer. I was asking him what to call my new site, what to do with my old domain and should I even keep it. I remember him telling me.. Let go of your past, remove the baggage from your life. Let this domain go and I will help you out with your next site. Well I began to run with it.

I first started out calling it Geeks 4 God and ran with the idea of a Tech blog that would be about using technology for the Kingdom but that did not sit well with me and my mentor I found that I was getting to wrapped up in the whole identity of being the Geek who was for God and who loved his technology.

As my late friend and I went though some a time of diggin’up roots that had not been delt with I began to find out that I was so wrapped up in Geek 4 God that even the people around me only saw me as that.  I did not know what to do I was torn. So I developed this site and ran the two together.

I still did not think I would have any impact on anyone with the blog I just trusted that the Lord would do his thing. I still hope to put a domain on it and I still hope to reach more people. But this is a faith thing. This is something that will be in the Lords time.

I remember a sermon by Pastor Derek Schneider called Understanding Times and Seasons and this really helped me to understand why we go though short seasons, why some seasons are long and why the Lord does things the way he does them. Sometimes I think the seasons are too long, sometimes I wonder that was quick. I really think the Lord is grieved by me right now. I really think that sometimes he is mad at me. I just know right now that he is grieved with me.

I have learned that are strong holds get the most of us when we are alone weather in the bedroom, or as a single person living on his own it always gets you most when you are alone, tired and at your weakest point. That is when we have to be most on guard. That is when the devil can get in and take us down. WE CANNOT LET HIM.

We are governed by Times and Seasons my Pastor would say but we in that season can do things that will change what happens in the next. A Pastor who recently resigned his post to move on to other ministry opportunities taught on transitional prayer. This is a type of prayer that a person can do so that he does not take any baggage over to the next season.

You see we can have roots or bad fruit that can be carried in from one season to the next and if we are not careful we can actually in my opinion damage the season we are moving into. Each season will come with its own baggage but don’t ever bring the old baggage into the new season or it will get harder and harder (in my opinion) to get rid of.

Well I am rambling again but if you would like to know more on the topic of times and seasons I encourage you to listen to the sermon by Pastor Derek Schneider listed/linked above and to watch out in your moments of weakness and not let the devil ruin this season or the next.

Be Blessed!

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